And it’s not over yet! The month started with a class reunion on the 8th. The turnout wasn’t so great, but it was good to reconnect with old friends. One of the things that struck me was when they asked people in the room to raise their hand if they still had both parents living. I was I think one of only four! And since the last reunion another handful of classmates have passed away. We just keep marching closer and closer to the front line!
The week after that I went to a women’s conference at the “Happy Church” in Glen Burnie, close to Baltimore. That’s not the real name (which is “Redemption House Life Center”), but it is the happiest church I know and the name has stuck. My friend Mary was one of the speakers, and she had a team of women come as well to minister. This would be the conference where the necklaces we made the week before got handed out. Except I didn’t get to do that because I was sick. Yep. All day Saturday, the best day of the whole event, and I was back at the hotel. I handled it good at first, but then as the day wore on I started to have a pity party for myself and those never end well. Let’s just say the Lord was getting the crap out of me in the spiritual realm and that the physical world often reflects the spiritual, lol. So I missed a glorious night where Holy Spirit showed up in a very, very big way. I was told they’d been waiting for that night for years. Me too, lol. Guess I’ll have to wait a little longer. I felt pretty much normal by Sunday morning and didn’t want to end on such a downer, so I went to church and saw God move again (in a different way but very powerfully). I got a word about being Mary’s “Joshua” and that really encouraged me.
I came home for a day and a half before I headed out again, this time to Voice of the Apostles in Lancaster. The Network Meeting was good, and there was even a small gathering on Wednesday for GSSM students with Bill Johnson. Not getting to have a meeting like that had been such a disappointment to me back in 2012 when I went to Denver and Bill was there, and it was as if God was giving it back. It was actually the first time he spoke to GSSM students and he said it was well overdue. Some nuggets include: “Most of what you need in life will be brought to you. Most of what you want you’ll have to get.” He spoke about being hungry for God and going where He is moving. “You don’t go deer hunting at Macy’s or the mall, you go to where they are!” I never got why some people just plant themselves, insisting He come to their church when He was moving somewhere they could drive to. I’m not talking about leaving their church for another, but visiting like the people did during Brownsville and Toronto. Catch the fire and then take it home! After all, “Wise men still travel.” :) Jesus is constantly working to show us how unseen things work, and leaders owe it to their congregations to stay exposed to the supernatural. When he was done speaking, he and Mike, Ben, Tom and Katie made a fire tunnel and prayed for us all as we left the room.
All the meetings were good, though I did miss a couple. I got three prophetic words while I was there, one from Charity Cook, one from a student in CPCP, and one from the woman whose Bible had the gold dust. All three talked about words flowing out of me. Methinks it’s time to do more than blog :) Oh and about that gold dust, yes, it showed up big time I think Tuesday or Wednesday night (I don’t remember which). One of my friends was back there and came away covered in it. No, it wasn’t being thrown around. It actually comes through the pores of the skin. I had it happen once on my hands when I was deep in prayer (for Global actually). Another woman looked as if someone had taken a sheet of gold leaf and rubbed it across her cheeks, it was solid! I know there are skeptics reading this (hey, I’m a healthy one), but this was the real deal. The lady with the Bible said it happens often when she opens the Word. Why does God do that? I guess because He can :)
I had a shift occur while I was there when a friend and I had a conversation over lunch. I can’t even remember what was said, but she said she saw something in me “solidifying” and that’s exactly how it felt. No more letting feelings run the show! I’ve had numerous opportunities since then for that to be tested, and I haven’t given in. It is a battle, but a good one, and I am determined to “not go there” anymore. No more comparing myself, no more shaming myself, no more whining about where I am. This is a very good journey and I trust the process because I trust Him.
Today I drove to Hanover to help my dad with a few things. That’s another test, because I can feel his loneliness and see the needs he has. I have to be careful to only do what He tells me to. When you let peace be the umpire of your soul, that helps :) Now to just stay in that place of peace!!!!